Friends!?

Fool me once, shame on you




Fool me twice....








shame on me.

Your present on my table
I don't want this anymore
Two ribs below my heart, called-
Hate, hate, and self-disgust
Throw it away
Or wait another day
This year
I want another
Because I only mouthed the words

I never knew I would be the one to disappear.

I was convinced that it would be good to be alone at Christmas, opportunity to reflect quietly. I've realised that I've not only lost Arul this year, I've lost alot of friends to. Not because of them, but because of me. How do you punish yourself for digging your own grave? So really, I sit here, blue as hell because I probably deserve it. So to you all, Merry Christmas.

but may you not lose heart.

 I lost my handphone
I found it
I lost my voice
Who stole it?
I lost my mind
Never used it

I found a way
to be painfully
numb.

I don't wanna share you,
I don't want to lose you.

Hi, I will be moving from this site. I've had this for awhile & I've had wierd people add me & I've added them back. Realised, this isn't as private a LJ I would want it to be. So I'm moving. I'll add you at the new one. I'm making some huge changes in my life, weeding out the un-trustworthy. I fear I'm growing up a lot. But, I'm happy.

Steamboat with Joanna, Ruth, Trina & Mel today was awesomely fruitful.
Did alot of laughing and catching up, which was gooooood.
It's amazing how we still look & sound the same after 3 years. (:

More outings to come - we're counting on you Joanna Wee, thanks!

I'm sorry for a lot of things.

but tonight, I face my biggest regret.

from the bottom of my being, I am sorry.


everything around me is broken including me.

and you were the only one saving me.

if anything happens, you were not at fault.

goodnight.

When you can't get up to the cold morning light
But you don't get to sleep in

And everybody only wants to fight
You're up against never being right

When the worries of the world hold your feet
And there's little left to believe in

Today is going to be a better one
There's nothing more to take in
That's going wrong

Old pale memories of someone you knew
Keep crawling through the back of your mind

In the daylight you're crossing all your wires
You never knew just how to put out a fire

The closet's been shaking with bones
Little reminders that you're out on your own

Today is going to be a better one
There's nothing more to take in
That's going wrong

Today keep your head and drop the gun
There's nothing more to battle when you're gone

Walk on

If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot - Brand New.

 "I keep thinking, at which point did I simply become
a spectator of your life?
At which point did you not, need me anymore?"



???

I will freeze my love. Take it, alive....
when you want it. It's alive and
it's waiting for you.


I need you, I need you, I need you.

I'm officially sick - caught the stupid flu.
Thank you infectious germs, Bye.

And the fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

And the fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world

Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

And the fire fades away

   
  
     

Zirca. Lady's Night. International friends. Other bimbotic moments or disasters. Although I especially love, The Day After. It's much sweeter, Sleeping all day with my bestestestest friend in the whole wide world.

Call some Macdonalds? And any other slobbish behaviour is accepted. As long as we stay put on the bed. Why are you sneezing shall I turn off the air-con? Oh no, the remote is too far. 30-whole-centimetres of out my reach. Fucking slobs.

Still these days are golden. I wouldn't mind more days like this.

I'M OFF TO NEW ZEALAND TONIGHT!! Returning back on the 29th night. WHOLE 2 WEEKS BABY! Anyhow, I can't wait for the photo opportunities there and even the road trip too! Well, looks like I'm finally getting a little excited! Though, I have yet to pack and I haven't even bought my toiletries!!!! I'VE TO LEAVE MY HOUSE IN 3.5 HOURS!!!! FML FML FML!!!!

Well, at least I'm panicking so i guess that means I'm pretty stoked?